So we have reached a new year. However we got here, in whatever state we have arrived, we made it to 2015. And there is a lot of energy around that. Happens every year right? Even for those us (me) who do not make resolutions it is hard to not see this as a fresh start. This is the year I am going to ….. fill in the blank. It is different for everyone. We are always reaching for something or someone to jump start us. Looking outward instead of inward. And so each year those resolutions fade away and our real life steps up.
Resolutions work when they come from our soul. When we can look inside and have a knowing of a need for change. I was cleaning out my computer last week. Getting rid of old files and I came across something I wrote in 2010. It was “My 2010 Intention”. Wow, what an interesting read. I had forgotten all about it. And what I know is that my life has followed the path of those intentions. Let’s take romance:
” I am ready to receive the gift of love, knowing it may be fleeting or transitional.. I do not expect or even want forever. Forever seems way too big at this point. But I want now, and I deserve that, and I am making room and going for it.”
That pretty much sums up the romantic adventures I have been on. I said it out loud, I do not want forever. And yes, that is what I received. But now, 5 years later, I can feel the shift in my soul and I do want forever. I have to set that intention.
How about how Spirit worked out? I studied for years with a teacher who took me down paths of Shamanism, Spiritual healings, Mind, Body and Spirit connections. working with the Sacred Wheel. It opened a whole new world for me and I am forever grateful for that, those lessons still serve me well. But at some point I felt it was not my true path, and I was lost. My 2010 intention spoke about that:
“I need to find a spiritual balance in my life. I ask for a teacher to arrive. The student is ready. Great Spirit, help me to keep my eyes open and see the gifts you are giving me. I feel a shift in my body, in my mind, I am ready, show me the way. ”
And oh my gosh, did I find that. I not only found a spiritual teacher, but a spiritual teaching that has filled me beyond anything I expected. It fits so very well into who I am I walked in 5 years ago and found my place. I know that this teaching has made my life better. Of all my intentions this grounded me the most.
I am giving a couple of examples but there was more to it. About being more present, feeling worthy, new friendships, letting my light shine. All of this has come to pass in some way. So it was really interesting for me to take a step back in time and then see how all of that has manifested in my life. Some good, some challenging, but all valid and important.
Because the last 5 years have not been a piece of cake for me. I let go of so much. From deaths, to lifestyles, to dreams, to friends, to my home, my pets. If I looked at all this without love, without seeing the gifts, it could be very depressing. None of that has been easy, and at times I was less than graceful about letting go. But always, even in the midst I knew that this too is God, and here lies a lesson.
And the gifts of the last 5 years. I cannot even count the amazing people that have walked into my life. Some fleeting, some forever, all have touched me and helped me on my path. I am so blessed. I have more freedom, that came from letting go. I am confident, I no longer ever wonder if I am worthy. I am absolutely worthy. Do I let my light shine? Usually it lights up without me even trying. Sometimes I keep it low because I need the light for myself. I have learned to take care of myself and love myself.
So I stand here at the door of a new year, looking ahead to the next 5 years and what will come my way. I need to set some new intentions. Because another part of rereading those the 2010 intentions is that most of them have come to fruition and I can intend for more, more of what is needed in my 2015 life. 2010 no longer fits me, I have outgrown it, how wonderful is that?
Intention works better for me than resolution. Intention is something I work with, it is fluid. It is a combination of my mind and my actions working together to manifest what I want to create in my life. For some reason resolution feels a little limiting, not fluid. Life is going to take many paths during the next few years but if we can hold our intention we can see our way through everything. The intentions we have set support the lessons sent our way. The path is not always easy, but it is always good.
So I am going to spend the next few days looking at what I want in my life. How do I want my life to appear? What is working? What is not working? What blocks need to be removed? Some things really jump out at me, but I want to give them time to ferment. Because however I set my intentions, that is what I am going to have, at least until I have outgrown them and need to reset.
And I kind of want to stay with the 5 year plan. It is accidental that it worked out that way, but really nothing is accidental. 1 year is fast, it is hard to get a perspective from 1 year. But 5 years, it is a little lifetime. If I had just looked at the last year I would not really have seen the bigger picture. How I have arrived here in this moment.
So it is a brand new baby year. And we can decide what we want. Actually we don’t have to wait for a new year, a new week, a new anything. We can make a change, a decision, an intention at any time. The Universe does not really care that the date changed. But we do have a new year, and it is a good time to look back and to look forward. I encourage you to set some intentions. To look at your life and decide where you need to grow, what you need to bring in, what you need to let go of. What is working for you? What is holding you back. Write it down, speak from your heart. No one ever has to read it, this is about you and your life. You are the designer.
I am telling you this, if you do not state what you want and need in your life you will be living by default. Stuff is always going to show up, make sure it is there by your desires.The universe will respond to your thoughts, whether or not they are conscious thoughts. . Do not live unconsciously, be awake and aware. Invite the good into your life. Make it known. As Rumi says:
“What you seek is seeking you.”
Because the Universe will respond to your spoken and unspoken words. Make them the words of your heart, of your soul. Create the life you want. This is our moment, this is our time. Don’t live by default, make your words, your thoughts and your desires known. And live your best life.
May the next year bring you gentle lessons to take you to the life you intend to live.