I am taking a new class. It is a short 4 week class on the book The 5 Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Ruiz Jr. I have read about half the book now. If you have read anything by Don Miguel you know have to read it over and over. I have read the 4 Agreements so many times I can quote it (in my sleep). But each time it goes deeper and I have more understanding. I think that is how The 5 Levels of Attachment will be. I have only had one class, but as soon as it was offered I jumped at the chance to take it. Because I attach easily and I am not sure why.
It helps me to have a formula to recognize my roles and how I am playing them out. I don’t want to go over the book too much (you can read and decide for yourself). For me, to be able to say I am at level 1 or 3 or 2 helps me step outside the situation and gives me some breathing room. A moment to assess and recognize where I am at and if is this where I want to be.
I have one big attachment right now. Sure, its a relationship one. If I could just let go of the fantasy I have built around this person and the future my life would be better. I am trying, but it keeps coming back for different reasons. When I look at this situation unemotionally it is nothing I want, so let it go right? Easier said than done. Do I just want to win? Do I want to be right? Do I want the power that comes with surrender from another? Do I want to believe that love conquers all? Is this even love, probably not. It might be about control. Isn’t it enough to just control my own life, do I have to direct all players in it also? That is tiring and really doesn’t work. People are going to do their own thing, I know I am.
It So this is another journey, this dis-attaching. I am thinking start small, get some skills and work up to the larger issues. I know my life will be more joyful, calmer and closer to Spirit once I clean house. Another way of letting go and being more authentic, more free, more open to the truth. Clarity, seeing myself as I really am, this is the goal. Wish me luck, this one is going to take some time.