Can I accept all the love the Universe offers me no matter the form it comes in? How available am I to be loved in ways that are a little different from what I want? Do I simply relax and say yes? I think so.
I spent the last 48 hours surrounded by love. I have had 2 days of sharing time with people that love me and who I love back. All of these visits, meetings, sharing, were unrelated. I just kind of fell onto a pathway of love. There was a visit, then a lunch, then a conversation, then a visit, then a phone call, another visit and I have an event tonight with a dear friend. All people who are so valuable to me and who love me all in different ways. An interesting note, not one of those loved ones are blood family. But they are my family, they are my tribe. They are the people I have chosen to love.
So many different kinds of love. We go through life building relationships, all kinds. Family, friend, work, romantic, church, community. As we move ahead these all change over time. And that is what I mean, can I accept love, however it comes?
Right now I am struggling to change within a relationship that has changed. I want it to be the same, but it is not. And I don’t know where to put these feelings. This change comes from life circumstances that neither of us had any control over. But she has changed, and I have to love her in a different way now. Our relationship has to find new footing, the old path does not fit. I think I have to be gentle and kind and breathe through it. I have to be honest and share my feelings and be willing to hear hers. I have to stay in a place of non judgement and no expectations. I have to let the Universe do its work through me and through her. Because she is my sister we will always be connected. That is, for us, a given. Her path is hard right now. There are also lessons for me in this. A willingness to let go of what was, and love what is. Does it always come down to “Love what Is”? Maybe, standing in the past, holding on to the days that have passed is a lonely way to live.
I love this quote by Hafiz. If we could just love each other, as we are, as we stand here. Can we accept that people are going to grow, are going to change, are going to not want the same relationships that we do, and love them anyway? Can we not put conditions around how we love, who we love, why we love? Can we just love? There is a belief that there is nothing you can do to earn God’s love and nothing you can do to lose it. Can we love like that? Can I love like that?
Because this is not about my sister, that was simply my strongest example. This is about everyone in my tribe. This is about my son, and loving him even when…. This is about my friends and knowing they have their own lives, be willing to take the amount of love and time they have to share, and not judging that. Or comparing, or keeping a list. This is about men who I have loved when the relationships went south. Can I stay in a place of love even then? Can a different kind of relationship develop? Can I accept that as our path this time around? Can I keep seeing love when basic beliefs are different from mine, and yet I love the person? Can I have a loving physical relationship and be good with the limitations around that? Can I love old friends from afar, knowing our time together ran its course? Can I have all of these loves and more, and not say “you owe me”. Can I take what is offered and celebrate that?
The answer to that is yes, most of the time. Not always, sometimes I feel sad, or lonely. I might feel rejected, I might be having a pity party. But really, that is only sometimes, and doesn’t really last. It lasts long enough for me to remember who I am and who you are. We are love, We are of the Universe, we are here to create, to learn and grow. And our greatest teacher is Love. We crave it, we name it, we judge it, we cling to it, we cry when we perceive it lost. We lose our minds, our perspective and our sense of self. All in the name of love.
But let us look at LOVE, love with a capital L. Love comes from Source, Love is energy, Love lets us believe in ourselves. We see ourselves more gently when we look at ourselves through another’s loving eyes. Love lifts us, Love makes us strong. Love makes us compassionate, Love sets us free.
So when I can stay in the place of Love with a capital L. I can have 48 hours of bliss. I can welcome all kinds of love coming my way. And the more I welcome, the more that appears. Rumi returns with “What I seek is seeking me”. I court Love, I invite Love in. All Love, all Love is welcome. I am going to move forward into my day seeking Love, not judging, no conditions, no requirements. Because Love only wants my greater good, only lifts me higher. Open mind, open heart and ready to claim all the Love the Universe can send my way. I invite you to join me in welcoming Love with a capital L.
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